Sometimes, I'm all too aware of my body. Like, I know I'm alive, that I'm breathing, making saliva. I remember that I have organs and a brain. I remember that inside me my body is transferring all this information, all without my knowledge. I can't just think "Move your pinky" and move my pinky without feeling like I had nothing to do with it. And when I have these thoughts, something else registers:
Just how much of my life IS in my control?
No, I'm not saying I'm free of responsibilities or anything. I know that I choose whether I do drugs, or kill babies, or do drugs while committing infanticide. I just wonder, just how insignificant am